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MY THOUGHT 13881
QUESTION 5246: ARE YOU IN A CONSTANT STATE OF RE-DISCOVERING YOURSELF? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13882
QUESTION 5247: ARE YOU WILLING TO FOCUS ON ‘YOUR THINGS’ SO THAT YOU WILL ATTRACT LIKE-MINDED INDIVIDUALS? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13883
CONTEMPLATION: CONCERNING REINCARNATION, SOME HAVE BEEN HERE FOR MANY LIFE TIMES. SOME TO LEARN HOW TO OR TO TEST THEIR SPIRITUALITY. WE DO NOT KNOW OR ARE NOT AWARE OF HOW MANY LEVELS OF SPIRITUALITY THERE ARE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THAT DOOR. IN THE HINDU STORY OF THE CREATION, THIS WAS TO BE A PARADISE. ANOTHER FORCE WANTED THIS WORLD THIS. SO A BATTLED RAGED AND WE HAVE THE STORIES IN THE MAHABHARATA. A COSMIC BATTLE FOR THIS WORLD; THE CLASSIC YIN/YANG OF ALL THINGS. THE BUDDHA HAD SEVERAL LIFE TIMES. THE ONE BEFOR HIS LAST, HE WAS WARRIOR PRINCE. IN HIS LAST ONE, HE LIVED A PRIVILEGED LIFE FIRST AND THEN LIVED A LIFE OF SELF DENIAL FOR SEVERAL YEARS. EVENTUALLY HE FOUND THAT NEUTRAL ZONE BETWEEN THE YING AND THE YANG. WE ARE BEING TAUGHT BY SOME THAT THERE IS A ‘KARMIC DEBT’ THAT MUST BE PAID TO ‘SOME FORCE’ BEYOND THIS LEVEL. IN MY OPINION, THERE ARE ONLY KARMIC LESSONS OF OPPORTUNITY TO TEST YOUR SPIRITUALITY ON THIS LEVEL. THESE CAN BE TOUGH TESTS ON THIS LEVEL. I BELIEVE THAT WE COME HERE OF OUR OWN FREE WILL TO LEARN, NOT TO BE PUNISHED. IF THE WORLD BEYOND THAT DOOR IS ANOTHER FORM OF THIS WORLD, I WOULD PREFER NON-EXISTENCE. IT IS BEST TO DEAL WHAT IS ON THIS LEVEL WITH THESE EMOTIONS THAT WE HAVE BY TRYING TO CALM THEM DOWN AND SEE THE VALUE OF BOTH SIDES OF THE YIN/YANG. WE GET TO TRY BOTH SIDES ON THIS LEVEL. WHEN WE REALIZE THAT BOTH SIDES HAVE VALIDITY, WE HAVE LEARNED A MOST VALUABLE SPIRITUAL LESSON. AGAIN, I FEEL THAT THERE IS NO DEBT TO BE PAID, BUT THERE ARE LESSONS TO BE LEARNED. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13884
REFLECTIONS 032: THROUGH MANY EXPERIENCES IN LIFE, THROUGH MANY HELLS TO BE CLIMBED OUT OF, MEETING MANY INTERESTING PEOPLE AND PEOPLES, PERUSING MANY SACRED TEXTS, BEING OPEN TO THE WHISPERS FROM MANY GUARDIAN ANGELS, AND AN APPRECIATION FOR LESSONS LEARNED HAS BROUGHT ME TO THE PRESENT ME. RAISING TWO FAMILIES. NOT HAVING JUST ONE TEACHER, AND BEING OPEN TO THE WISDOM OF MANY SPIRITUAL TEXTS AND PHILOSOPHIES HAS HELPED ME FACE THE MANY CHALLENGES OF THIS LIFE CYCLE. MY THOUGHTS COME TO ME DAILY AS I VIEW LIFE AROUND ME. MANY PEOPLE ENJOY LIVING DRAMA FILLED LIVES, WHICH I NOW AVOID. MINDFUL OBSERVATIONS, HAVING PATIENCE, AND HAVING AN EAR READY TO LISTEN TO OTHERS HAVE BECOME WONDERFUL TOOLS IN MY LIFE. THIS IS EASY TO DO BECAUSE I AM NOT TRYING TO PROVE ANYTHING TO ANYBODY. I JUST FLOW WITH THE RIPPLES, THE WAVES, AND THE CROSS CURRENTS OF THIS LIFE. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13885
AFFIRMATION: I AM ALWAYS MINDFULLY HERE UNTIL THE COSMOS INVITES ME BACK HOME. THEN I WILL BE THE WHISPERS IN THE EARS OR THE VISIONS IN THE MIND’S EYES OF THOSE WHOSE MIND’S EYES ARE OPENED TO THE COSMOS. EmilKoval©2018

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MY THOUGHT 13876
QUESTION 5244: ARE YOU AWARE OF THE TRILOGIES IN TNE WORLD AROUND YOU? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13877
QUESTION 5245: HOW MANY SOCIAL TRILOGIES ARE THERE IN YOU PERSONAL LIFE? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13878
SUGGESTION: FOCUS ON THE TRILOGIES IN YOUR LIFE: FOR EXAMPLE, 1) THE PARTNER, PARTNER, AND RELATIONSHIP TRILOGY; 2) THE PARENTS, CHILD, AND FAMILY TRILOGY; 3) THE SELF, JOB, AND FAMILY TRILOGY; AND 4) YOUR FAITH, YOUR FAITH LEADER, AND YOU TRILOGY. BECOME AWARE OF THE OTHER TRILOGIES IN YOUR LIFE. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13879
REMEMBER THAT: WHEN YOU ARE OUT IN PUBLIC WITH PEACEFUL FEELINGS IN YOUR HEART AND YOUR MIND, YOU ARE IN A GOOD STATE TO OBSERVE THE ACTIONS AND CHOICES OF OTHERS. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13880
CHOICES: YOU ARE GIVEN THE GIFT OF A PHYSICAL LIFE ON THIS LEVEL. YOU ARE ALSO GIVEN FREE-WILL TO MAKE CHOICES TO HELP YOU GROW, STAGNATE, OR DEGENERATE. YOU MAY NOT HAVE HAD CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG; HOWEVER, WHEN YOU ARE OLDER AND MORE MATURE YOU CAN ‘REWRITE THE SCRIPT OF YOUR LIFE’ BY MAKING MINDFUL IMPORTANT CHOICES. ‘FREE WILL’ MEANS YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO ENHANCE YOUR LIFE’S EXPERIENCE OR YOU CAN IGNORE YOUR LIFE’S EXPERIENCES. YOU HAVE THE CHOICE TAKING CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE SCRIPT NOW, OR YOU CAN REDO IT THE NEXT TIME AROUND. IT IS YOUR ‘FREE WILL’ TO CHOOSE YOUR THOUGHTS, ACTIONS, RE-ACTIONS. EmilKoval©2018

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MY THOUGHT 12871
QUESTION 5242: ARE YOU WALKING THE MIDDLE PATH BETWEEN YOUE NEEDS AND THE NEEDS OF YOUR LOVED-ONES? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13872
QUESTION 5243: ARE YOU WILLING EXPLORE OTHER SPIRITUAL FOUNDATIONS AND OTHER SPIRITUAL TEXTS IN ORDER TO EXPAND YOUR SPIRITUAL WISDOM? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13873
CONTEMPLATION: YOUR LIFE RESPONDS TO THE SPIRITUALITY WITHIN YOU AND TO THE NEEDS OF YOUR PHYSICAL BODY. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13874
TRANSITIONING: FOR THE SPIRITUAL PERSON, NON-SPIRITUAL PERSON, AND THE NOT FULLY SPIRITUAL PERSON, DEATH CAN BE A BLESSING AND RELIEF FROM THE DUALITIES OF THEIR LIFE WHICH IS IN CONSTANT CONFLICT BETWEEN SPIRITUALITY AND MATERIALS. FOR THE PERSON ON THE SPIRITUAL PATH,DEATH IS JUST A NEW DOOR TO OPEN AFTER THEY HAVE ACHIEVE THEIR ACHIEVED OF SPIRITUALITY. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13875
DEATH: TRANSITIONING IS FOR PARENTS TO UNDERSTAND THE EVENTUAL ENDING OF THEIR PERSONAL ROLE ON THIS LEVEL IS THEIR PREPARATION TO PREPARE THE WORLD FOR THE NEXT GENERATION. DEATH IS STEPPING OUT OF THE WAY SO THAT THE NEXT GENERATION CAN GROW AND MOVE ON. EmilKoval©2018

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MY THOUGHT 13866
QUESTION 5239: WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP? WHAT VALUES ARE YOU LOOKING FOR IN A RELATIONSHIP? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13867
QUESTION 5240: WHAT IS YOUR UNSPOKEN CONTRACT WITH YOUR PARTNER? WHAT YOU EXPECT FROM YOUR PARTNER, AND WHAT DOES YOUR PARTNER EXPECT FROM YOU? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13868
QUESTION 5241: WHAT DO YOU ABSOLUTELY NEED IN A RELATIONSHIP, AND WHAT ARE YOU PREPARED TO GIVE TO THAT RELATIONSHIP? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13869
CONTEMPLATION: YOUR KARMA IS YOUR SPECIAL PRIVATE LIBRARY OF THINGS THAT YOU NEED TO LEARN. IT IS NOT A PUNISHMENT FOR PAST EVENTS. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13870
CONTROL: THE NEED TO CONTROL OTHERS REQUIRES ETHNOCENTRICITY, ISOLATION, AND A STRICT DOGMA AT ANY COST. IT WILL CAUSE VERY LIMITED OR CONSTRICTED SPIRITUAL GROWTH. EmilKoval©2018

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MY THOUGHT 13861
QUESTION 5237: ASK YOUR BODY: WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE ME TO ACCOMPLISH TODAY FOR YOU? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13862
QUESTION 5238: DO YOU FIND MORE JOY IN YOUR RESENTMENTS, OR DO YOU FIND MORE JOY IN THINGS THAT YOU APPROVE? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13863
CONTEMPLATION: THERE ARE THOSE IN THIS TIME PERIOD WHO FEEL THAT RELIGION IS NECESSARY TO KEEP ORDER IN OUR SOCIETIES, AND THERE ARE THOSE WHO FEEL THAT RELIGION IS A BANE ON SOCIETY. REGARDLESS OF WHICH VIEW IS PROMINENT IN YOUR MIND, THEY ARE BOTH PATHS TO ENLIGHTENMENT. THERE ARE THOSE THAT WILL ATTACK ALL FAITHS UNTIL THEY CREATE AN UNDERLYING FAITH IN HUMAN PHILOSOPHY. THERE ARE THOSE WHO WILL USE THEIR FAITH TO HELP OTHERS FOR SELFISH OR UNSELFISH REASONS. HOWEVER, EVENTUALLY BOTH WAYS WOULD LEAD TO SOME FORM OF SPIRITUAL UNDERSTANDING. REMEMBER THAT THERE ARE MANY PATHS TO ENLIGHTENMENT. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13864
ATTACHMENTS: MATERIAL DESIRES CREATE ATTACHMENTS AND CAN EVENTUALLY STAGNATE OR LIMIT SPIRITUAL GROWTH. REFLECTING ON THE WHYS ND HOWS OF YOUR ATTACHMENTS CAN LEAD TO MATERIAL DETACHMENTS. WHEN YOU ACHIEVE A TRUE SENSE OF NON-ATTACHMENT TO MATERIAL THINGS, YOU CAN ACHIEVE TRUE SPIRITUAL GROWTH. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13865
REMEMBER THAT: REMEMBER THAT YOUR IMMORTALITY ON THIS LEVEL WILL ONLY LAST AS LONG AS THE MEMORIES OF YOU LAST AMONG THOSE THAT YOU HAVE INFLUENCED. EmilKoval©2018

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MY THOUGHT 13856
QUESTION 5234: DO YOU REALIZE THAT A VERBAL WOUND CAN BE MORE DEVASTATING THAN A PHYSICAL WOUND? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13857
QUESTION 5235: DO YOU REALIZE THAT WHEN YOU SAY THINGS IN ANGER, THAT YOU WILL/MAY LEAVE A SCAR THAT MAY NEVER HEAL INTERNALLY?EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13858
QUESTION 5236: ARE YOU AWARE THAT INTROSPECTION CAN LEAD TO MORAL AND SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13859
REMEMBER THAT: MEDITATION IS A GOOD STEP TOWARDS SELF AWARENESS. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13860
REMEMBER THAT: WHEN YOU UNDERSTAND YOURSELF, YOU CAN HAVE BETTER RELATIONSHIPS WITH OTHERS. EmilKoval©2018

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MY THOUGHT 13851
QUESTION 5230: DO YOU WORK TO LIVE, OR DO YOU LIVE TO WORK? WHY? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13852
QUESTION 5231: DO YOU WORK OVERTIME TO PROVIDE FOR YOUR FAMILY, OR DO YOU WORK OVERTIME TO ESCAPE YOUR FAMILY? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13853
QUESTION 5232: ARE YOU AWARE OF YOUR UNSPOKEN CONTRACTS WITH YOUR PARTNER AND OTHERS? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13854
REFLECTIONS 030: THE FRONT DOOR OF MY HOME FACED DUE EAST SO THAT I CAN WATCH THE SUNRISE DANCING THROUGH THE JOSHUA FOREST OUTSIDE MY FRONT DOOR. THE BACK DOOR AND MY DECK FACED DUE WEST SO I CAN WATCH THE SUNSETS AND MOONSETS OVER THE MOUNTAINS. FROM MY FRONT DOOR IS NATURE IN ALL ITS GLORIOUS WONDERS. FROM MY DECK ON THE SECOND FLOOR, I COULD OVERLOOK THE HUMAN CONCENTRATIONS BEHIND MY HOME AND VIEW WONDER OF NATURE AND THE SKIES AT DUSK. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13855
REFLECTIONS 031: WHEN I LIVED MY HOME IN PALMDALE, IT WAS HEAVEN ON EARTH. IN FRONT OF ME WAS THE COSMOS AND A FOREST OF JOSHU TREES. BEHIND ME WAS THE COMPLICATIONS OF HUMANITY. I STOOD ON THAT RAZOR’S EDGE BALANCING THE YIN AND YANG OF THIS EXISTENCE. EmilKoval©2018

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MY THOUGHT 13846
QUESTION 5228: HAVE YOU ALLOWED YOURSELF TO BE OVER-COMMITTED TO EXTRA-FAMILY EVENTS IN ORDER TO AVOID INTRA-FAMILY CONFLICTS? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 15847
QUESTION 5229: HOW RICH DO YOU HAVE TO BE TO CONSIDER YOURSELF HAPPY? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13848
POST-MOTHERS DAY 180: IF YOU HAVE CHOSEN NOT TO BE A MOTHER FOR YOUR OWN PERSONAL ENDEAVORS, DO NOT DEMEAN, CRITICIZE, NOR ATTACK THOSE WHO CHOOSE MOTHERHOOD OVER CAREERS OR SOCIAL MOVEMENTS. YOU ALL HAVE SPECIAL PATHS THAT YOU AVE TO WALK. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13849
CONTEMPLATION: BEING CONTENT AND HAPPY IS AN INTERNAL JOB. EXTERNAL EVENTS MAY TRIGGER YOUR INNER HAPPINESS AND CONTENTMENT; HOWEVER, THE EXTERNAL DOESN’T CREATE YOUR INTERNAL CONTENTMENT AND YOUR INTERNAL HAPPINESS. THAT INTERNAL CONTENTMENT AND HAPPINESS DEPENDS BY HOW ‘YOU’ REACT TO WHAT HAPPENS AROUND YOU. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13850
REMEMBER THAT: KEEPING YOUR WORD TO OTHERS IS IMPORTANT TO YOUR PERSONAL INTEGRITY. EmilKoval©2018

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MY THOUGHT 13841
QUESTION 5225: POST-MOTHERS DAY 175: NOW THAT THE OFFICIAL MOTHERS DAY IS PASSED, WHERE IS YOUR MOTHER IN YOUR EVERY DAY THOUGHTS? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13842
QUESTION 5226: POST-MOTHERS DAY 176: WHAT DID YOU LEARN FROM THE MOTHERS IN YOUR LIFE ABOUT LIFE? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13843
QUESTION 5227: MOTHERS DAY 177: HAS YOUR MOTHERS DAY BEEN AN ASSETT TO YOUR CHILDREN, OR HAS YOUR MOTHERS DAY BEEN A LIABILITY TO YOUR CHILDREN? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13844
POST-MOTHERS DAY 178: EVEN THOUGH YOU HAVE RAISED YOUR CHILDREN THROUGH MANY TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS WITH GREAT NURTURING AND LOVE, THEY ARE NOT OBLIGATED TO LOVE YOU BACK TO THE SAME DEGREE. YOUR LOVE COMES THROUGH YOU TO THEM WITH NO STRINGS ATTACHED. WHEN THOSE CHILDREN BECOME MATURE ADULTS THEY HAVE TO WALK ‘THEIR PATHS’ WITH THE THE LESSONS THEY ARE HERE TO LEARN AND WITH YOUR EXAMPLES ON HOW TO LIVE ONE’S LIFE. YOU ARE TO PREPARE THEM FOR THE CHALLENGES THEY MAY MEET IN THEIR FUTURE. REMEMBER THAT YOU MAY NOT EVEN BE HERE TO ASSIST OR TO RESCUE THEM. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13845
POST-MOTHERS DAY 179: REMEMBER THAT THERE IS MORE THAN ONE MOTHER IN YOUR FAMILY. OF COURSE THERE IS YOUR PERSONAL MOTHER AND GRANDMOTHER. THERE ARE ALSO YOUR DAUGHTERS WHO HAVE BECOME MOTHERS AND YOUR DAUGHTERS-IN-LAW THAT HAVE WHO HAVE ALSO BECOME MOTHERS. WHAT A POTPOURRI OF MOTHERS WHO WILL BE LEARNERS AND TEACHERS OF MOTHERHOOD. EmilKoval©2018

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MY THOUGHT 13836
QUESTION 5223: MOTHERS DAY 170: IF YOU ARE STILL ANGRY AT YOUR MOTHER, OR FATHER, HAS YOUR ANGER HELPED YOU OR HINDERED YOU? CAN YOU GET PAST YOUR ANGRY SO THAT THOSE IN THE PRESENT CAN HAVE YOUR FULL ATTENTION? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13837
QUESTION 5224: MOTHERS DAY 171: WAS YOUR MOTHER TRULY PLEASED TODAY, DID SHE SAY SHE WAS PLEASED TO MAKE YOU HAPPY? EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13838
MOTHERS DAY 172: EVERY MOTHER SHOULD TEACH AND MENTOR HER CHILD/CHILDREN TO BE SUFFICIENTLY INDEPENDENT SO THAT THEY CAN STAND ON THEIR OWN SO THAT THAT MOTHER CAN BE CONFIDENT ENOUGH TO LEAVE HER BODY PEACEFULLY WHEN THE TIME COMES TO RETURN HOME. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13839
MOTHERS DAY 173: MOTHERS, AS WELL AS FATHERS, SHOULD ALLOW THEIR ADULT CHILDREN TO LIVE THEIR OWN LIVES. IF YOU AS A MOTHER HAS TAUGHT THEM WELL, THIS SHOULD BE EASY TO DO. THEY WILL LIVE THEIR LIVES ACCORDING TO THEIR NEEDS WITH THE LESSONS YOU, AS A MOTHER, HAS TAUGHT THEM. WHEN YOU DO THIS AND LIVE YOUR LIVES AS HAPPY LIBERATED PARENTS, YOU WILL BECOME THE ROLE MODEL FOR YOUR CHILDREN ON HOW TO LIVE IN THEIR LATER YEARS. YOU WILL ALSO BECOME THEIR SPIRITUAL OASIS TO TURN TO WHEN THEIR SPIRITUAL THIRST NEEDS TO BE QUENCHED OR WHEN THEY BEGIN TO LOSE THEIR WAY IN THE JUNGLE OF MODERN LIFE. YOU CAN BE THEIR TOUCHSTONE OF SPIRITUAL AND MORAL SECURITY. YOU AND THEY WILL GROW TOGETHER IN A SPECIAL WAY THAT CAN NEVER BE EXPRESSED IN WORDS. THIS IS MUCH MORE REWARDING THAN TRYING TO CONTROL EVERY ASPECT OF THEIR LIVES. EmilKoval©2018

MY THOUGHT 13840
MOTHERS DAY 174: CONTEMPLATION: ALTHOUGH MOTHERS NEVER FORGET THEIR CHILDREN, SOME CHILDREN TEND TO FORGET THEIR MOTHERS. IT SEEMS THAT BIRTHDAYS AND MOTHER’S DAYS HAVE BECOME DAYS OF JUST A FREE MEAL FOR SOME MOTHERS AND THE PRESENCE OF THEIR CHILDREN FOR TWO OR THREE HOURS. THE CHILDREN START OUT WITH THE TRADITIONAL ‘HAPPY BIRTHDAY’ OR ‘HAPPY MOTHERS DAY’ WHICH IS FOLLOWED BY ‘HOW ARE YOU DOING’. THEN THOSE CHILDREN FOCUS ON EACH OTHER AND TALK ABOUT THEMSELVES TO EACH OTHER AS THOSE MOTHERS QUIETLY MUNCH ON THEIR ‘FREE MEALS’. NOBODY SEEMS TO BE INTERESTED IN WHAT THOSE MOTHERS ARE FEELING, HOW THOSE MOTHERS ARE FEELING, AND WHY THOSE MOTHERS ARE FEELING THE WAY THEY DO. SO IN THE FUTURE, THOSE NEGLECTED MOTHERS SHOULD CANCEL ALL BIRTHDAYS AND MOTHER’S DAYS CONCERNING HER. IT IS INTERESTING THAT WHEN THOSE MOTHERS TRY TO EXPLAIN THEIR SITUATIONS, THEIR CHILDREN WANT TO AVOID THEIR MOTHER’S HEART FELT FEELINGS. AFTER A TWO-HOUR LUNCH OR A THREE-HOUR DINNER, SOME CHILDREN ALWAYS SEEM TO HAVE SOMEPLACE ELSE TO GO. ADULT CHILDREN HAVE TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THEIR OWN LIVES AND THEIR OWN DECISIONS. THERE COMES A TIME WHEN MOTHERS, AND FATHERS, HAVE TO LIVE THEIR OWN LIVES AND BE FAR ENOUGH AWAY TO LET THEIR CHILDREN LIVE THEIR OWN LIVES; AT THE SAME TIME, THOSE MOTHERS, AND FATHERS, SHOULD BE CLOSE ENOUGH TO BE OF HELP IF THOSE PARENTS ‘WISDOM’ IS NEEDED. EmilKoval©2018

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MOTHERS DAY 2018

2018 MOTHERS DAY REFLECTION NOTE:

TODAY I WOULD LIKE TO HONOR A TRULY NURTURING FOSTER MOTHER. MY BIRTH MOTHER, AFTER THE BIRTH OF MY SISTER AND MY FATHER BEING DRAFTED IN WORLD WAR II TO JOIN PATTON’S THIRD ARMY, SHE DECIDED THAT SHE WANTED A DIFFERENT LIFE. SHE ABANDON US FOR A NEW LIFE. AFTER THE WAR, MY GRANDMOTHER AND LATER MY AUNT ACTED AS CARETAKERS. HOWEVER, THEY WOULD ALWAYS REMIND ME THAT MAYBE MY FATHER WAS NOT MY REAL FATHER. IN THE LATE SIXTIES MY MOTHERS SISTERS CONFIRMED THAT HE WAS MY REAL FATHER, BUT I STILL HAD SOME DOUBTS. LATER, WHEN MY SON WAS BORN AND HE REACHED THE TEENAGE YEARS I COULD SEE THE EXACT LIKENESS OF MY FATHER’S FATHER‘S FACE WHICH EXACTLY MATCHED MY SON‘S FACE. WHEN I WENT TO HIROSHIMA IN 1960, I MET A FAMILY WHO HAD SURVIVED THE ATOMIC BOMB. THE JIKIHARAS WERE CURIOUS TO MEET THIS TOOTH-PICK SHAPED AMERICANS WHO CAME TO SPEND TIME IN THEIR CITY. WE HAD MANY CONVERSATIONS AND BECAME QUITE CLOSE. MRS/ JIKIHARA HAD SURVIVE THE ATOMIC BOMB OVER HIROSHIMA. HER HUSBAND WAS A SERGEANT IN THE ARMY IIN KOREA. HE WAS THE ONLY JAPANESE AT THAT TIME WHO TRULY LOVED KOREAN PEOPLE. WE BECAME VERY CLOSE FRIENDS WJILE DISCUSSING HISTORY AND WORLD EVENTS OVER SOME BEER AND SAKE WITH ENGLISH. CHINESE, AND JAPANESE DICTIONARIES. WE DISAGREED ON A OF THINGS; HOWEVER, WE NEVER ARGUED. THEY SAID THAT THEY WISH THEY COULD HAVE HAD A SON LIKE ME. MRS. JIKIHARA BECAME THE NURTURING CARING MOTHER THAT I NEEDED FOR THE FIRST 18 YEARS OF MY LIFE. WE BECAME A TRUE FAMILY. ALTHOUGH THEY HAVE PASSED AWAY, THEY ARE VERY CLOSE IN MY HEART AT ALL TIMES. ANOTHER THING THAT MRS. JIKIHARA DID FOR ME WAS TO HELP ME GET RID OF A CHRONIC CARBUNCLE CONDITION THAT I HAD THAT THE NAVY COULD NOT CURE. IN 1965 WHEN I WENT BACK TO VISIT THEM, SHE INSISTED ON TAKING ME TO THE ATOMIC BOMB CASUALLY COMMISSION HOSPITAL WHERE SHE USUALLY GOES FOR TREATMENT. THE DOCTOR SAID THEY COULD NOT HELP ME. I TOLD THE DOCTOR YO CONVINCE THEM. SOON I WAS TAKEN TO A BACK ROOM AND GIVEN TWO SHOTS OF A SPECIAL MEDICATION IN MY NECK AND A LOT OF DIFFERENT PILLS TO TAKE WHEN I LEFT. TWO MONTHS LATER, I WAS TOTALLY CURED OF MY CHRONIC CARBUNCLE PROBLEM. ALL THE CREDIT GOES TO MR. AND MRS. JIKIHARA FOR TREATING ME LIKE A TRUE SON.

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